1 and half more hrs I'm getting older, yeah its time to think what had i achieve at this year .... big achievement i slim down from 113kg become now 88kg hahahaha
Coming i need to reduce 16kg is it possible ? it seem hard hahah ..
Well my 21 year old financial : Bad ....
hopefully my 22 will be better but i'm sure will be better because i start work full time soon.
Yet the coming challenges is CIMA external, and all the money payment will be done in GBP poor ....
Yeah same as usual tonight was a quite night and quite lonely. Same I had MCD today which i think ald done as my 22 years old birthday ritual, EAT MC DONALDS hahahaa
How was tomorrow donno most will be a lonely again .....
Happy birthday to me. Age 21 for Gary Benjamin End (still got 1 hrs 18 minutes)
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Nothing more than a word of sorry.
Amanda I'm sorry. I think to help but yet it make the thing worse. Even you hate me，I also wont have any blame, because you should do it even myself also can't forgive myself.
I hope you and CC will be fine soon, I will do nothing said nothing until you really ok with all the thing. I am so sorry. Apologize is just the thing I can do know. If anything I can service for you just tell. Last but not least, I'm SORRY Amanda
Amanda I'm sorry. I think to help but yet it make the thing worse. Even you hate me，I also wont have any blame, because you should do it even myself also can't forgive myself.
I hope you and CC will be fine soon, I will do nothing said nothing until you really ok with all the thing. I am so sorry. Apologize is just the thing I can do know. If anything I can service for you just tell. Last but not least, I'm SORRY Amanda
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Malaysia Chinese
Aha! Come across this topic, there is something in my mind is we Chinese in Malaysia actually is the best in South East Asia country. Why I said so? The answer is easy because we are having chances to learn the 2 major International Trade Language in our country which is English and Mandarin.
Surprisingly, many of our local Chinese give up this advantages. I wonder why parent do not want their child to study at Mandarin primary school. Chinese words is our native words, how can we don't know our native words. I forgive those who didn't have chance to let their child study but yet many of them are give up the chance of learning. To all my dear friend who also future parent please do not give up the chance of letting your children learn Mandarin. You should know that besides of English the world trade language will be Germany, Japanese and Mandarin. Everywhere around the world also got a China Town. For those who cannot read Chinese really a shame of being a Chinese. I wonder why Some Malaysian Chinese will have this kind of thinking, are they don't know around the world there are more and more people learning chinese? are they don't know our originate country China was the No.1 growth country at world ranking? Don't think that it is useless in Malaysia so don't let them to learn, as a same question apply on english, malaysia all legal document are prepared in malay why we still have to learn english? somemore english is not our native. Learn chinese is not a burden but an advantage. Especially for those who want to work at HK, TW and CHN. Try imagine when you go oversea work you colleague ask you what is that chinese word mean but you said you don't know, how they will think about you ? You are a chinese but you don't know how to read chinese it just similar like you are a chef but you don't know how to cook.
So please, don't make you child shame because you never give a chance for them to learn mandarin
Aha! Come across this topic, there is something in my mind is we Chinese in Malaysia actually is the best in South East Asia country. Why I said so? The answer is easy because we are having chances to learn the 2 major International Trade Language in our country which is English and Mandarin.
Surprisingly, many of our local Chinese give up this advantages. I wonder why parent do not want their child to study at Mandarin primary school. Chinese words is our native words, how can we don't know our native words. I forgive those who didn't have chance to let their child study but yet many of them are give up the chance of learning. To all my dear friend who also future parent please do not give up the chance of letting your children learn Mandarin. You should know that besides of English the world trade language will be Germany, Japanese and Mandarin. Everywhere around the world also got a China Town. For those who cannot read Chinese really a shame of being a Chinese. I wonder why Some Malaysian Chinese will have this kind of thinking, are they don't know around the world there are more and more people learning chinese? are they don't know our originate country China was the No.1 growth country at world ranking? Don't think that it is useless in Malaysia so don't let them to learn, as a same question apply on english, malaysia all legal document are prepared in malay why we still have to learn english? somemore english is not our native. Learn chinese is not a burden but an advantage. Especially for those who want to work at HK, TW and CHN. Try imagine when you go oversea work you colleague ask you what is that chinese word mean but you said you don't know, how they will think about you ? You are a chinese but you don't know how to read chinese it just similar like you are a chef but you don't know how to cook.
So please, don't make you child shame because you never give a chance for them to learn mandarin
Friday, October 16, 2009
It is 16th of October 2009 ....Today i plan to tell you all about the current situation I'm having ....
Well almost a year gone, what actually I have had achieved in this year?
Answer is nothing.
When things come to a decision point I'm indecisive on what should I chose. For me now everyday is a challenge. I'm challenging on how to save and how to earn. For all people will have their challenge but for me and my sister the challenge raking in the 1st priority will be money.
If talk about money it is a long long story to be told. It should be way back to 3 years ago when my old bro, my dad start his own fruit business. At the 1st few month he was very hard working everyday go Selayang big market to order the fruits. Somehow when time goes, the lazy bug in his cell start bite him, he never go to market to order fruits, he just call to the fruits suppliers to ask what fruits is nice on that day and straight order from phone without take a look on quality, as result the quality is getting worse. Besides, because at first the business is consider not bad can generate profit, hence my old sis, my mom allowed my old bro to go out find his friends when he have appointment. But it is just sweet before bitter come, when time goes we realise that my old bro customers also got 1 characteristic, they only buy thing when my old bro is around, but my old bro always go out with friends hence we miss out many large business where they normally buy in bulk. Nonetheless, my old bro always give alot of unnecessary discount to his customer, come to the end the business failure, they owed suppliers 80k and loan shark 15k. Our suffer time come because of that.
My old bro because he used to be boss style hence ask him to go get a full time work is hard. What he do now is half retired status, he are doing a pest guard machine however his attitude to his friends really too sympathy, always sell then on discounted price hence each machine he just earn RM20, and he not every month got income even have also very less. What to do is my old sis now she work for 2 jobs, morning 9-12 she went to a construction management company as a cleaner then after 12 she go to petaling street help her sister sell bags. Her monthly income just 1.5k per month, every month she have to repay 1k to the suppliers then she just left 500 for her personal use. So now my house utilities is paid by my sister where she just work 1.9k per month after socso epf jz left around 1.7k plus she help my so called aunt to tuition her child to get 500 extra per month. But it is not enough to cope with my home use. My sis finance me 350 per month for my studies, then telephone + internet bill is around 200 per month, astro 110 per month, water bill around 50, so she her total salary just left 1490. 1490 she have to pay for our dinner every night, she have to buy the home use like gas, shampoo toothpaste. she have to pay my dad when he no money to pump petrol. She have to save money for her CIMA examination and membership and she have to pay for her Korean class. So every month what she left really just 2-3 hundred.
Well where my student fees come from? my old borrow it and some finance from my sis, what my old bro do? he just push all his responsibility to the 2 female at my house. Really feel piss off about his attitude. Well my old sis might because overload until her heart have to do surgery, so temporary I replace her to work at her sis there when weekend to let her not so tired but because my sis planing to resign from her current job so I have to look for high salary. My so called aunt just pay me 40 per day sometime will included 1 meal and no commission but it really too less for me to cope with my monthly expenses if my sis stop work and stop finance me. Well next Tuesday I'm going to Diners club interview but they pay is not higher just Rm5per hour and each application is RM7 commission. Somehow I think that if I work at Diners Club my mom have to force to work weekend also. If i stay at my aunt there work it is flexible for me to take leave when I need do assignment But work at there really DAMN BORRING and WASTED TIME. So what should I do. I'm feel that I'm useless and just a big burden for this family. I'm hope this year will end soon and I will come out to look for a full time then i can help my sis to cope with the family expenses ... ohya talk about expenses electricity my house per month is RM38x, we ask my uncle to contribute 200 but he always not on time pay us so what we do jz owe TNB 1st ... now we owed TNB 18xx sigh ....really feel stress. Somemore this sem alot of critical assignment. What to do. Stress. But yet life have to go on. Ganbateh. i scared to be poor anymore, even i already immune it but really i don't hope to pass this kind of life anymore in my future.
Well almost a year gone, what actually I have had achieved in this year?
Answer is nothing.
When things come to a decision point I'm indecisive on what should I chose. For me now everyday is a challenge. I'm challenging on how to save and how to earn. For all people will have their challenge but for me and my sister the challenge raking in the 1st priority will be money.
If talk about money it is a long long story to be told. It should be way back to 3 years ago when my old bro, my dad start his own fruit business. At the 1st few month he was very hard working everyday go Selayang big market to order the fruits. Somehow when time goes, the lazy bug in his cell start bite him, he never go to market to order fruits, he just call to the fruits suppliers to ask what fruits is nice on that day and straight order from phone without take a look on quality, as result the quality is getting worse. Besides, because at first the business is consider not bad can generate profit, hence my old sis, my mom allowed my old bro to go out find his friends when he have appointment. But it is just sweet before bitter come, when time goes we realise that my old bro customers also got 1 characteristic, they only buy thing when my old bro is around, but my old bro always go out with friends hence we miss out many large business where they normally buy in bulk. Nonetheless, my old bro always give alot of unnecessary discount to his customer, come to the end the business failure, they owed suppliers 80k and loan shark 15k. Our suffer time come because of that.
My old bro because he used to be boss style hence ask him to go get a full time work is hard. What he do now is half retired status, he are doing a pest guard machine however his attitude to his friends really too sympathy, always sell then on discounted price hence each machine he just earn RM20, and he not every month got income even have also very less. What to do is my old sis now she work for 2 jobs, morning 9-12 she went to a construction management company as a cleaner then after 12 she go to petaling street help her sister sell bags. Her monthly income just 1.5k per month, every month she have to repay 1k to the suppliers then she just left 500 for her personal use. So now my house utilities is paid by my sister where she just work 1.9k per month after socso epf jz left around 1.7k plus she help my so called aunt to tuition her child to get 500 extra per month. But it is not enough to cope with my home use. My sis finance me 350 per month for my studies, then telephone + internet bill is around 200 per month, astro 110 per month, water bill around 50, so she her total salary just left 1490. 1490 she have to pay for our dinner every night, she have to buy the home use like gas, shampoo toothpaste. she have to pay my dad when he no money to pump petrol. She have to save money for her CIMA examination and membership and she have to pay for her Korean class. So every month what she left really just 2-3 hundred.
Well where my student fees come from? my old borrow it and some finance from my sis, what my old bro do? he just push all his responsibility to the 2 female at my house. Really feel piss off about his attitude. Well my old sis might because overload until her heart have to do surgery, so temporary I replace her to work at her sis there when weekend to let her not so tired but because my sis planing to resign from her current job so I have to look for high salary. My so called aunt just pay me 40 per day sometime will included 1 meal and no commission but it really too less for me to cope with my monthly expenses if my sis stop work and stop finance me. Well next Tuesday I'm going to Diners club interview but they pay is not higher just Rm5per hour and each application is RM7 commission. Somehow I think that if I work at Diners Club my mom have to force to work weekend also. If i stay at my aunt there work it is flexible for me to take leave when I need do assignment But work at there really DAMN BORRING and WASTED TIME. So what should I do. I'm feel that I'm useless and just a big burden for this family. I'm hope this year will end soon and I will come out to look for a full time then i can help my sis to cope with the family expenses ... ohya talk about expenses electricity my house per month is RM38x, we ask my uncle to contribute 200 but he always not on time pay us so what we do jz owe TNB 1st ... now we owed TNB 18xx sigh ....really feel stress. Somemore this sem alot of critical assignment. What to do. Stress. But yet life have to go on. Ganbateh. i scared to be poor anymore, even i already immune it but really i don't hope to pass this kind of life anymore in my future.
Wednesday, September 02, 2009
Wow i have 3 years never update my blog.
This 3 years nothing special, just feeling that life is getting more stress, family financial problem, exams, coursework. Well something told that my mom had done her heart surgery last month because her mitral valve defected so have to change a metal 1. After she back from hospital her personality change a lot, always moody then just try to find something to scold us. Sigh, life already enough suffer because of money issue some more after back home from school or work have to heard her blaming.
Exam start on this Friday, however i still no mood to start do revision. What happened to m? sigh.
Hope my mood of study will come tonight...
2 b cont.
This 3 years nothing special, just feeling that life is getting more stress, family financial problem, exams, coursework. Well something told that my mom had done her heart surgery last month because her mitral valve defected so have to change a metal 1. After she back from hospital her personality change a lot, always moody then just try to find something to scold us. Sigh, life already enough suffer because of money issue some more after back home from school or work have to heard her blaming.
Exam start on this Friday, however i still no mood to start do revision. What happened to m? sigh.
Hope my mood of study will come tonight...
2 b cont.
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