November 26
A lonely birthday
Yesterday how i past my date of birth ?? Yesterday i let my parent'sargue voice to wake me up at early 7 morning then i go to the Public Bank there withdraw money to paid the utility expenses formy house , because of family financial problem so the utility bill already got 3 month didn't go to paid it , so i just forced to use the PTPTN loan to paid for it . After i come back it already 9.30 morning then i online to chat ,i suddenly saw yik hua online ,i'm very surprice why she so early wake up to online , so i go have a conversation with her then she said she can't sleep so online find buddy chat with her . At 10.00 morning i receive my little aunt's call she said she will come my house and got cook lunch for me , that time i really very happy because i no need to past my birthday by nothing to do ,but when she come i felt asleep already because very tired , when i wake up the 1st thing i do is send a mobile message to someone to ask what she doing atthat time , but i'm very sad because she didn't reply my message. After i send the message i go to my freezer there and i saw a bowl of curry and some vegetable inside the freezer so that time i only remembered my little aunt said that she will come. Yesterday i almost 24 hours also sit infront of my sister laptop , i got received many greeting message from my net friends and college classmate , i'm very happy that they still remembered my birthday , yesterday my birthday dinner just 1 pack of instant mee and the meal my aunt make for me . Yesterday actually i got send many message to the one i really care of but she just reply me few message only , i felt sad because i got a feel that she at avoid from me. When at night i chat with one of my classmate from what he told me then i comfirm that my feeling are right ,that time my mood like a plane want to land the airport ,falls until my brain are blanked ,don't know what to do , then i go in to my grandpa room take out my guitar and play winter sonata but because the guitar strings are loss so it play out a very sad feeling swing , that time igot a feeling is want to smash my guitar but i didn't do so i still go adjusted the swing and the strings of my guitar and repeatly play the winter sonata . That how i past my birthday , is it very lonely ?but i'm normal about it because start fromfew years ago i already past my birthday like this. 1st of my wish is totally spoiled , i hope that my other wishes can be come true.